god Radio

Smoking my second cigarette, because I'm watching what I eat and thus can't go have a mocha frappe or other ice cream treat, window rolled a quarter of the way down in the rain. I get his voicemail.

Hey. It's me. I just wanted to talk. Work sucked. I got called in at 2:30 to work at 5, when no one would even work for me when I was sick. Then the meal I cooked was tough as hell. Well, his wife started it before I got there so I guess it's really her fault but it was still tough and they didn't eat it. Then I almost dropped my client on the floor. And he was using something that I'd never seen before and no one had told me how to use. ugh. So work fucking sucked. I just wanted to vent. Hope you're having a better night than me. 

I lit another cigarette. And heard the tell-tale piano playing

You might put your love and trust on the line
It's risky, people love to tear that down
Let 'em try
Do it anyway
Risk it anyway

And if you're paralyzed by a voice in your head 
It's the standing still that should be scaring you instead 
Go on and 
Do it anyway 
Do it anyway 

There will be times you might leap before you look 
There'll be times you'll like the cover and that's precisely why you'll love the book 
Do it anyway 
Do it anyway 

Tell me what I said I'd never do 
Tell me what I said I'd never say 
Read me off a list of the things I used to not like but now I think are ok 

Sometimes it's not subjective: wrong and right
Deep down you know it's downright wrong but you're invincible tonight
So you
Do it anyway
It's done
You did it

Despite your grand attempts the chips are set to fall 
And all the stories you might weave cannot negotiate them all 
Do it anyway 
Be honest, anyway 

So tell me what I said I'd never do
Tell me what I said I'd never say
Read me off a list of the things I used to not like but now I think are OK
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
Woah woah woah woah

It's gonna be so very hard to say
And watch the trust and joy all drain from her innocent face
But you must
Do it anyway
It sucks but
Do it anyway

Call it surrender but you know that that's a joke 
And the punchline is you were never actually in control 
But still, surrender anyway 

Tell me what you said you'd never do 
Tell me what you said you'd never say 
Read me off that list of things 'cause I used to not like you 
But now I think you're OK 
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
Woah woah woah woah

Everybody knows that you just gotta do it anyway

Do it anyway
Do it anyway
Do it anyway
Do it anyway
Do it anyway
Do it anyway
Do it anyway
Do it anyway

Cause you don't do nothing to avoid self punishment
You won't do nothing
You won't feel nothing
Gotta
Do it, do it, do it anyway
Ah
Do it anyway



And now I feel better.

*god Radio: What my uncle called it when the radio played something that really spoke to you, in whatever way. It's become a whole thing with those of us who were really close to him, especially as many of us have had times when we thought my uncle was speaking directly to us through the song on the radio, though I still use it for general mood-changing, epiphany-giving events.

**BFF's performance of the song on the Colbert Report is also great, though not as fun as the video above and no longer available online.