Monday, January 28, 2008

To All The Haters Out There [Paramore- Misery Business]

I really like to post songs that I really like, that get into my head and just won't let go, even if I don't really feel like they have any connection to my life at the time. When this song first grabbed ahold of me, it was in November and I was on the fence about the truthfulness of a certain situation but I didn't want to antagonize anyone in said situation by posting this song and having them get the wrong idea. I just liked the song. Ok, so maybe I was feeling alittle bit of the song's sentiments at the time, but I wasn't about to admit it. But now that situation is over, but more women keep crawling out of the woodwork and I find myself feeling the song's sentiments more and more. Funny enough, it isn't really jealousy that I feel. Or possessiveness. I could easily share him. And, if he decided he wanted to be with someone else, though it would be hard, I would accept that as his choice and love him enogh to let him go, to encourage him to be happy. The only thing that really bothers me is that I don't feel like any of these women care about him, that they only look to fuck with his head and his heart, or that they would only use him. But as long as he's with me, I'm going to make sure that "all his wildest dreams come true", whether or not they involve you at all. Though it does feel SO GOOD to know that he has chosen me, over and over again.

Misery Business- Paramore
[Verse 1:]
I'm in the business of misery
Let's take it from the top
She's got a body like an hourglass that's ticking like a clock
It's a matter of time before we all run out
When I thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth.
I waited eight long months
She finally set him free
I told him I couldn't lie he was the only one for me
Two weeks and we'd caught on fire
She's got it out for me
But I wear the biggest smile.

[Chorus:]
Whoaa I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoaa it was never my intention to brag
To steal him all away from you now
-But God does it feel so good
'Cause I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God it just feels so..It just feels so good.

Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged
I'm sorry honey, but I'm passing up, now look this way!
Well, there's a million other girls who do it just like you
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who
They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!

[Chorus:]
Whoaa I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoaa it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
-But God does it feel so good
'Cause I got him where I want him right now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God it just feels so...It just feels so good.

Bridge:]
I watched his wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving...

Whoaa I never meant to brag, but I got him where I want him now!

[Chorus:]
Whoaa I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoaa it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
-But God does it feel so good
'Cause I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God it just feels so...It just feels so good.

Youtube Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aCyGvGEtOwc

Katie-He's Got Another Girlfriend

I've been contemplating whether or not to post this blog now for several weeks. I would have just come to you in person, but I can't seem to find you through the magic of the internet and I've already warned him that I would tell you if he didn't. I'm sure that this is also done out of some sense of vengence. You would think that my sense of vengence would have been quenched by fooling around with him over the summer, after the Bruce Hornsby concert on the Levy, but, after your comments about why you wanted to come to the funeral, it is suddenly back with a vengence. Maybe I'm lucky enough that he has already broke up with you and come clean. But probably not because he's kinda cowardly when it comes to girls. Heck, I hope his PA girlfriend knows/knew about you. Best of luck to you and I hope a lesson has been learned. Though I'm not exactly sure what that lesson should be or who should be learning it. Tata.

Friday, January 11, 2008

Gone- Chris Cagle

I really like this new country song. And I have a feeling that it's probably a sentiment my husband will be echoing quite a bit. Once he's home at least. Because it doesn't do much good to make a big show of leaving the house to leave him when he's hundreds or thousands of miles away. My mother predicts some knock down drag out fights, once we are living in the same house and I don't exactly doubt her. Then again, in the wisdom of my grandmother, "You don't really love someone unless you can fight with them." I'm sure our grandchildren will have fun telling their own versions of stories that end like the ones I tell about my grandparents, with dented cans and screen doors, with broken plaster fake fruit, with LTDs stuck on the mailbox pole and $600 microwaves---- stories of things that they never saw happen but that have since become family lore. (And yes, BT, since I wrote 'our grandchildren' that means that I haven't thrown all your stuff out or sold it and I haven't filed any papers. Though I'm still pissed and not feeling very trusting right now.)

Gone- Chris Cagle
I heard the door slam and i couldn't tell
was it just the wind or was she mad again
- ah hell
she's gettin in her car
i hollered baby is there something wrong
thought i heard her say something sounding like i'm gone
but these days gone can mean so many things.

chorus: theres gone for good
and theres good and gone
and theres gone with the long before it
i wish she'd been just a little more clear
well theres gone for the day and gone for the night
and gone for the rest of your dog gone life
is it whiskey night or just a couple beers [<---love that line!]
i mean what kind of gone are we talkin bout here

well its gettin dark out, she ain't back yet
ain't called home, turned off the phone
ah man
hah this might not be good
i would have stopped her, when she went to leave
but i didn't 'cause i didn't really think what i'm thinkin now
i'm still not sure what gone is all about

chorus:theres gone for good and theres good and gone
and theres gone with the long before it
i wish she'd been just a little more clear
well theres gone for the day and gone for the night
and gone for the rest of your dog gone life
is it whiskey night or just a couple beers
i mean what kind of gone are we talkin bout here

is it the kind of gone where she's at her mom's cooling down
she'll come around
or the kind that says you had your chance and she ain't comin back

chorus: theres gone for good and theres good and gone
and theres gone with the long before it
i wish she'd been just a little more clear
well theres gone for the day and gone for the night
and gone for the rest of your dog gone life
is it whiskey night or just a couple beers
i mean what kind of gone are we talkin bout
what kinda gone are we talkin bout
what kinda gone are we talkin bout here
what kinda gone

Best youtube I could find at the moment:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-75raKEmGoo&feature=related

Friday, January 04, 2008

Hold On- Sarah McLachlan

I knew that I wasn't going to be able to blog much, if at all over the holidays while I was out of town because none of my in-laws have computers or internet connections, so I hoped that I would have a great deal to write about when I got back. And I do. Just not what I thought I'd be writing about. This holiday was much more awful than I ever could have predicted and I'll write more about it soon but I wanted to put up a quick post and this song popped into my head as I was getting out of the shower today so I thought I'd share it with you. If the story I heard was right, Sarah McLachlan wrote it after watching a documentary about a woman who's boyfriend or husband was dying from AIDS complications, though I think the woman herself was HIV-. But I think it can be applied to a great many situations. Enjoy the song. I'm going to try to clean up/ organize/ consolidate some of my husband's stuff so that my family can actually use the exercise room. I figure he won't mind me moving it all around so that he can't find anything, especially since he won't be back for at least 9 months.

Hold On- Sarah McLachlan
Hold on
Hold on to yourself
For this is gonna hurt like hell
Hold on
Hold on to yourself
You know that only time will tell

What is it in me that refuses to believe
This isn't easier than the real thing

My love
You know that you're my best friend
You know I'd do anything for you
My love
Let nothing come between us
My love for you is strong and true

Am I in heaven here or am i...
At the crossroads I am standing

So now you're sleeping peaceful
I lie awake and pray
That you'll be strong tomorrow and we'll
See another day and we will praise it
And love the light that brings a smile
Across your face

Oh God if you're out there won't you hear me
I know that we've never talked before
Oh God the man I love is leaving
Won't you take him when he comes to your door

Am I in heaven here or am I in hell
At the crossroads I am standing

So now you're sleeping peaceful
I lie awake and pray
That you'll be strong tomorrow and we'll
See another day and we will praise it
And love the light that brings a smile
Across your face...

Hold on
Hold on to yourself
For this is gonna hurt like hell
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bEoaY7YlMxU