[Backdated for historical accuracy]
What I listened to on my way out to visit TyRoy, the lyrics that are important to my state of mind at the time included. Explanations included if I think they need to be.
Counting Crows- August and Everything After
Anna Begins: It does not bother me to say this isn't love/Because if you don't want to talk about it then it isn't love/And I guess I'm going to have to live with that/But, I'm sure there's something in a shade of gray/Or something in between...The time when kindness falls like rain/it washes me away and Anna begins change my mind...Her kindness bangs a gong/It's moving me along and Anna begins to fade away/It's chasing me away. /She dissappears, and oh lord I'm not ready for this sort of thing
Raining in Baltimore: You get what you pay for/But I just had no intention of living this way...There's things I remember and things I forget/I miss you I guess that I should/Three thousand five hundred miles away/But what would you change if you could?
Matchbox 20- Mad Season
Last Beautiful Girl: (Whole fucking song) This will all fall down like everything else that was/This too shall pass and all of the words we said/We cant take back/Now every fool in town wouldve left by now/I cant replace all the wasted days/The memory of your face - cant help thinkin/Maybe if we ever coulda kept it all together/Where would we be/A thousand lost forevers/And the promises you never were giving me/Heres what Im thinking//It wont be the first - heart that you break/It wont be the last - beautiful girl/The one that you wrecked - wont take you back/If you were the last beautiful girl in the world//Tell me one more time/How you're sorry about the way/This all went down - you needed to find your space/You needed to still be friends/Needed me to/Call you if I ever couldnt keep it all together /you'd comfort me/Tell me 'bout forever/And the promises I never should have believed in/Heres what Im thinking//It wont be the first - heart that you break/It wont be the last - beautiful girl/The one that you wrecked - wont take you back/If you were the last beautiful girl in the world//Its over now - and Ive gone without/Cuz youre everybody else's girl/It seems to me - you'll always be/Everyone elses girl/Everyone else's girl//This will all fall down/Like everything in the world/This too must end/And all the words we said/We cant take back//It wont be the first - heart that you break/It wont be the last - beautiful girl/The one that you wrecked - wont take you back/If you were the last.../It wont be the first - heart that you break/It wont be the last - beautiful girl/The one that you wrecked - wont take you back/If you were the last beautiful girl in the world/The last beautiful girl in the world/You are the last beautiful girl in the world/Beautiful girl
Ok, I'm not trying to be stuck up with this one. I just feel like this is how everyone feels when I get to the end of the relationship with them. I can't seem to just end things like a normal person. I have to feel like I'm "being there" for them, which probably doesn't really help anyone, except to make me feel like less of an asshole because I've usually cheated on them and broke their heart. And, in all honesty, they shouldn't want me back because I screwed them over. But I can't help trying to be the good guy to make up for the fact that I'm the bad guy.
You Won't Be Mine: I know soon you will be/Over the lies, you'll be strong/You'll be rich in love and you will carry on/But no - oh no/No you wont be mine